Writing in a zig-zag

I feel like I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster since early May, right before my wedding, and it’s just carried right on through. Lots of good mixed with lots of… challenges (I refuse to say “bad”).

Taken at Alton Towers last year, when I realised I might be entering the stage of life where I’m better off on the ground.

Admittedly, it’s hard to follow up a dream-come-true wedding and lush, relaxing “minimoon” with any act at all, so I’m not sure why this surprised me.

Nothing outrageously terrible has happened! So thank God for that. It’s just been a lot of stressful things, ranging from my visa application (which is in the hands of the imminently-striking UKBA and their work-to-rule summer, on top of a backlog spanning months, no idea when my passport might be returned to me) being the major one. Family stuff I can’t do anything about, due to the visa thing, and other kinda big “life” things. I’ve found it really hard to strike a balance between learning to rise to these challenges, and face my writing (and work) goals. So sadly not only is this post late as it should’ve been yesterday, but I’ve been missing out on commenting on my fellow writers’ blogs, encouraging and cheerleading, and beta/CP reading. I’m trying to get back on track, but sometimes the track moves and I’m hoping this is my chance to learn how to keep up.

My July #writemotivation goals:

1. Finish new round of edits to MS #1.  Done.

2. MS #1 x5. Done and then some.

3. Finish edits to WIP to Chapter 9. See 4.

4. Write 10k in WIP. Just before sending my first few chapters off to a CP, I had a few days of inspiration. I decided to change back from third to first (good grief), change my MC’s age form 17 to 19 (kinda major), and add an entirely new dimension to the possible genre-confusion that will happen with this story. But I’ve been making notes, plotting more than ever, and I feel like I’m finding my way to where this story was meant to go all along. It means killing a few chapters further on that I’d drafted and felt proud of, but I may save those for a future story. Or see if I can salvage. In any case, “finish edits” has become zig-zagging my way through a whole set of changes that I didn’t expect. I thought I had this story nailed down (at least, the first 9 chapters). But maybe that’s part of my training to become a Jedi warrior harness the power of the Deathly Hallows master carrying the Ring learn to keep up with the changing track.

To summarise, I’ve been investing in research material, researching, brainstorming, outlining, and writing future scenes. No idea of the equivalent word count of that though!

5. Balance job hunting with writing, CP/Beta work, and blogging. Be realistic! I read B’s ms and am working on M’s and also L’s. Loving reading others’ work and seeing their strengths and learning from them. Just wish I had about 15 more hours per day! Job hunting – I’m not slowing down, despite aforementioned identity paperwork issues. 

I’ve had a few breakdowns this week. One involved mouldy blueberries and coffee grounds. Another, an empty mailbox. But it’s going to be okay because no matter what, I have people who love me, near and far, I can rearrange plans and make even BETTER ones for later, and I’ve got my writing and passion for telling great (hopefully, someday, by golly) stories. 

Things rarely go the way we plan, but they’re never as bad as we imagine (and I don’t want to be giving any more time than I already have to imagining the bad). Sometimes much better. Perspective. Though these days, I know I sometimes need to have that perspective from the ground rather than way up in the sky where everything’s one big sleigh-ride into awesome.

I hope your July goals – if you have them – are going well, no matter whether you’re ticking them off or adjusting for change. Enjoy the weather (if you’re in the UK where we finally have sun and blue in the sky), and if you’re in the States I hope you get a big fat rainstorm! Thanks for reading.

P.S. An “up” from the past week: I queried two agencies that I already queried 2+ years ago (with an absolutely tragic query letter), and have since rewritten the entire manuscript of MS#1. I thought I’d take a chance, and both requested pages! One sent a very kind rejection (keep trying, it only takes one, etc.) and the other is in the air but kindly said she’s “looking for fresh voices”. That’s me! I’m fresh! 🙂

Even if … well, it’s been so encouraging to hear back from these kind people who’ve given me a second shot.

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6 thoughts on “Writing in a zig-zag

  1. *loves and hugs* I don’t know what I can say that I haven’t said already! 🙂 but still, I’m here, always, and you are not alone!

    As for writing zig-zag? Ha! My characters have been meandering all over the inn. Things might be falling into place….maybe. I won’t officially say it until it happens.. but it looks like I’ve got more cohesion, I just gotta make it work. It’s frustrating and that cuts into productivity too. But there’s always tomorrow. Right?

    Congrats on your requests. That’s always good! Even when they reject, it’s still good. Makes us grow. Makes us better.

  2. WOOT!! You heard back! That is more than many authors will ever get so a big chocolate chip and fudge dipped cookie to you. Also this -> become a Jedi warrior harness the power of the Deathly Hallows master carrying the Ring = loads of cool points in your favor from my nerdy side.

    Keep your chin up, sounds like you’ve got a strong determined streak so cry when you need to then wipe your eyes and get right back in there. You can do this.

    *~MAJK~*

    1. Mmmmm, FUDGE. You said the magic word! In my life thus far, being able to get a hold of myself and overcome worry and anxiety would be my equivalent of carrying the Ring to Mordor, or kicking Voldy’s behind, or becoming a Jedi. So it just seemed a logical statement 😉 Though I’d much rather be surrounded by woodland elves, dwarves, Aragorn, Sirius, and Lupin. But hey. 😉

      Thanks so much for your encouragement! Today’s been a great day off the back of several frustrating ones so I need to remind myself that things always find their way in the end, even when it’s not the way I expected 🙂

  3. *hugs* I know all to well how life’s challenges get in the way of goals. I was forced to legally change my name & lot’s of probs with my driver’s license as a result. (long story) I’m sure you can and will get back on track just don’t beat yourself up if it takes longer then you want it too. Just remember you are fantasic and these recent struggles will fuel your future writing 🙂

    1. Thanks so much, Sonya! Ugh, the driver’s license thing sounds like a huge pain in the neck, to say the least. I do think you’re right – these kinds of struggles seem to really encourage venting through writing, and even proper escape into the world I’m writing about because the one I’m actually in is a ….teensy bit frustrating at the moment 😉 Thanks for stopping by!

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