Down to business

That door could go *anywhere*. Imagining where it’ll lead is fantastic. But eventually you have to get off your butt and find out.

After months of editing, re-reading, editing, and re-reading some more until I find another 200 things to edit, I’m setting my first manuscript aside. I recently changed the tense from past to present, and in doing so, believe I found lots of areas in which to strengthen the story. The characters, their motivations, and the story arc. I’m sure I could work on it til Kingdom Come, but the truth of the matter is, there are way more stories in me. As much as this first (completed) one is my baby, it’s time to get moving on another.


It’s been on the backburner for months. I came up with the basic premise last March, and now a year later, it’s only a halfway-done draft. If that. I worked on it extensively during NaNo this year and reached the word count, but it still has so far to go. It’s weird. I feel the same way about working on a painting: I am so excited to see it done, and I have such hope for where it can go, and really feel it can be something special. But it’s the actual sitting down and working on it that I find so difficult.

Why is it sometimes SO hard to do the very things we want to do the most?

To anyone reading this, I wish you the best in tackling that project – whatever it may be – that you KNOW can be great but you’re almost afraid to focus on it, as though your attempts might not live up to your projected hope for it. Don’t let those nagging, evil, bloodthirsty hurdles stop you from just sitting down and working. Because the only thing they want from you is to stop you doing it at ALL. Don’t listen to them. 🙂 I’ll try not to, too.

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4 thoughts on “Down to business

  1. This really resonated with me. I finally have a book published but then decided it needed to be edited one more time. I pulled the plug at the last moment and now I have become a perfectionist. I need to just let my baby go now.

    1. Aww, wow, congratulations on getting published, Tammy! That’s fantastic!

      I am definitely a perfectionist right there with you. I never realised I was until I went back to university a few years ago. Suddenly, every essay, every bit of research, everything had to be checked and edited and revised over and over. I nearly had to have some of my lecturers pry the things from my hands. I knew my final dissertation would be worst of all, so I made myself set a date one month before it was actually due to finish it by. That gave me an entire 30 days to obsess over it 😉 But also, time in which to let it go. It’s hard. But better that way than the opposite, I think!

  2. It’s funny what you say about painting. That’s the exact feeling I’ve had while working on recreating a painting for my living room recently. I know I’ll get there and am excited to finish, but actually working on it is intimidating. Apparently I have no idea how to paint until I’m actually doing it, then magically everything comes out looking all right.

    Which sounds awfully familiar. But I guess since I’ve been doing it longer I have more faith in my writing process than my painting one 🙂

    Best of luck to you on your WIP! It WILL come together!

  3. That’s it!! That’s it exactly! With painting and writing both, it’s like I don’t know what I’m doing until I do it, and then it *does* just happen! Like magic. Though in my case, it’s the reverse; I’ve been painting confidently since 1993. I’ve only completed my first manuscript as of last year. My dissertation and writing throughout uni felt like it came together magically… Time will tell but I’m hoping the same can be said for my fiction writing as well. :}

    Thanks, Savannah! And have fun rolling up your sleeves for that painting!

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